Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Baking a bun in the oven. Again.

  
I am sorry for losing personal touch with this blog. My last few posts were still from my heart, but I wish I have written something more personal like I used to.

Anyway, I am not sure if you already know, but Alhamdulillah, I am now 9 weeks pregnant. Yes, it’s the first trimester. My new best friend is my bed and my pillows, and surprisingly my comfort food these days are cold juicy fruits, especially when I am feeling all queasy and nauseous. I also have some trouble sleeping, this time I have very vivid dreams and always wake up in the middle of the night. Thanks, hormones.

I tried to continue with my exercises and all, but I have to surrender for the moment because at the end of the day my eyes are droopy and I find myself not wanting anything but crawl on to bed (not even dinner!). If it is not for Bella, I think I would have dozed off as early as 7pm.

Bella has been a sweetheart with the pregnancy news so far. She is a little clingy nowadays, but it’s still manageable. I find myself already missing her, so these 9 months I will do my best to enjoy giving her my full attention before the baby comes.

She seems to understand that I have a baby growing in my tummy. Every time she accidentally knocked on my tummy she would say sorry to the baby. How sweet.

I have not been to the OBGYN yet, but I will do soon. I am looking forward to try for a natural and vaginal birth (VBAC); I hope Allah eases my way and make it possible. It has to start with getting myself informed and choosing a supportive doctor.

I admit that I am a pro-choice mother. I prefer to be informed of my options – the risks and the benefits. If possible, I always want things go the way nature intended it to be. So, I am open to the idea of gentle birthing with unnecessary interventions. I want to do it, if I am capable to.

Some people do not understand why I am supportive about gentle birthing. I guess if they open up and take some time to listen to how I felt about my previous pregnancy and birthing experience (or the reasons of other moms who has the same experience as me), then maybe they would understand. It’s not like I am banning the idea of doctors and hospitals though, I do feel that we all still need their expertise when it is needed.

Home-birth? Nah, I am not going that way. So don’t worry, heheh.

Baby is just the size of an olive now. I hope it will grow strong and safe inside my womb, and I can’t wait to get past 12 weeks!

Now if you’ll excuse me, I need to go munch on some strawberries pronto.

10 comments:

LisaLisut said...

i br tauuuu, congratulations Ayuni and take care! :)

Ayuni Ayatillah said...

@LisaLisut tqq dear! :) Will do!

Dils said...

Congrats and hope you have a smooth pregnancy ahead.

Would love to see you update if you jumpa doctor who is into gentle birthing. I pon tak keen to relive induce + caesar experience.

nYomeL said...

Congrats Yuni!
Alaaa.. sweetnye la Bella ni.. ;)

Qistin Fadzin said...

Congrats Ayuni!!!

Tishya said...

Yuni aku pn looking forward for VBAC. I wish both of us luck! May our labour be success through V :)

Ayuni Ayatillah said...

@Dils @Tishya : Thank you dearies. I guess only those who experience it know how it feels to have a caesarian. Tishya, good luck, aku doakan ko selamat VBAC insya Allah. Dils, ok will do :)

@nyomel @qistin : Tq tq :))

Shakina Farhan said...

congratulation dear for ur 2nd pregnancy..! utk 2nd pregnancy ni pun hoping for gentle birth also! but not unassisted home birth for sure..hehe..

ishamizu said...

Congratulations Ayuni! Take care k

Nway, so sweet of Bella. I think she's ready to be a sister..:)

Ayuni Ayatillah said...

Thanks Shakina and Izu :))

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